Attempt Two: Day Three

Let me severely beat my head against a brick wall. As previously advised, I am not finding quitting the easiest to do. My temper is getting the better of me and all I can think about is bludgeoning something until I feel better. Why not people who don't appreciate my comedic wit.

I've found that salt and vinegar chips aren't bad at combating my cravings and have made me somewhat more pleasant to deal with. I know that I'm having a craving because my just below my shoulder blades feel tense and I also find my tongue pressing against the top of my mouth. Recognising the craving has become a good way of swallowing down my acidic remark and instead smiling scornfully. I get the pleasure of being derisive to the customer and they get to hear a smile over the phone... that's pretty win/win to me.

I'm still to work out just how to beat this creature that's brewing and get past my desire to smoke. Sure, recognising the craving for what it is helps but it doesn't help me get past it. There's only so much salt and vinegar that you can eat before you feel slightly nauseated. At this stage, I feel like I've been sucking on butchers paper that had been wrapped around fish and chips.

What surprises me is the way that people just expect me to smile and not want to kill them. It's a challenge, believe me. I'm not entirely sure I can manage but am struggling along all the same.

Pros:

• I am feeling healthier.
• I am going to live longer
• I am better off financially.
• I am getting my sense of taste back.
• I am getting my sense of smell back.

Cons:

• I've found that I need to replace several colognes that don't smell as good as I thought.
• That chicken sandwich I used to get from the food court - not nearly as nice as I thought.
• Spending the money saved on anti-smoking aids.
• I am going to have to put up with certain people longer than originally expected.

The pros outweigh the cons (just.) Guess I'll keep soldiering on with the quitting smoking.